Rexy

Today was my first day working at LYP. Everything went well and the partners there treat me good. Just need to take some time to adapt. Wne tback to bts to get my personal file n fion told me do i wanna go clubbing with them tonite? I sort of know they r going but they din invite me. It's ok but it's beetr that i don't know. I felt left out the moment i found out. I don't blame them I just feel a lil' disappointed. It's just better i did not found out. Relationships are like that they just change in a day. But maybe they forgot or maybe they have their own reasons. I shouldn't feel bad right? I'm just trying my best to be optimistic. Or maybe i'm overly sensitive about this. Haih.. I dunno what to expect. For years i don't think i really have a fren who i reli can call my BFF(best fren forever) except for Anushia who is way up north so we couldn't really have that kinda connection for now. I envy the characters played in movies that they have a best fren whom they can tell anything,go out shopping together,share tips, etc..i wish for that person...does tat kinda friendship exist? where both girls are closed like sisters and can go through phases of life. We all had our share of frenships in highschool. but how many u reli keep in contact almost everyday to share your daily gossips and problem? Maybe it's my problem that i cannot maintain but it's hard to open up to someone. When i get older i realise human nature is not what i expected. Friendships are not real anymore...(rarely) They use each other. each has their motives, their plans and once your "use" is expired..WHAM!! it's over and hit you right before your eyes. Maybe because i seen and experience it i find myself apprehensive in building real solid friendships..But deep down i need that someone other than my bf to share wif me..to ask me how's my day? and really listen..will I or will I not find this person? signing off~