merlin's pants!!

With a mask on my face n Fergie blasting thorugh the speakers..This is my most favourite time of the day. After midnight where only silence of the night surrounds me. This time is my personal time for me to relax. Listen to some great music equiped with a great speaker really does makes a difference.

there his once a friend told me that I have no life. No social life. This is because i seldom go clubbing or late night out. Most of the time i spend wif my bf or at home. I'm not the clubbing type. I prefer a lounge where I can get listen to great live music. Since I dont have the money to spend I create my own lounge. I have all kinds in my music in my pc so I spend my time in my room sort of in my own element. Doesn't mean i dun indulge in clubs or late night outs I have no life. I don;t have anythin against clubs but if you truly enjoy it then that's great. But what I obeserve is that many people go clubs becuase of some "cool " factor. Just because everyone is doing it they wanan join the bandwagon. Hanging out in the latest clubs = cool/hip. Then, to some they owe credit cards thousands but still wanna splurge to show people that they are cool and rich. Same goes to college kids whose parents sacrificing to support them but the kids blow it all away in their social life. If your parents are rich then by all means it's your right. I know a person in college who borrowed money form PTPTN and also bank loan to go to UK. I mean is it necessary to burden yourself or even your parents just to go UK?? My mom told me that this girl in church just started a-levels and told her mum she wants to overseas. Her family is not that rich and juts getting by every month. Such a snob, the girl is. She said that because some of the other girls get to go overseas to study. Look around us and many of us is just searching for somewhere that they belong. Thus making them wanna change the way ther are to fit it. This is just sad..I'm not perfect and do chagne a lil but keep it real. Know who you are and believe in yourself not follow blindly..Don't get influence easily, it may be hard but you'll look back and see you gain a lot from it. Back at Sbux BTS I was tempted to smoke because all my colleagues are smokers and once during a round of clubbing I actually ask for one but fate have it she was out of cigarettes that's where it hit me..What the hell am I doing? I realise that i'm out of control..Thank God that night... There more temptations and I will hate myself for it if i Conform to it..