never again

It's the time of the year again where I'm hung over on life. Furthermore Miss Meera gave us pep talk today about we are not taking this seriously.I love law. It's not easy but it's my element,it's what i'm born to do. I'm just letting laziness creep upon me. I know I'm smart. I can absorb lectures easily and can understand the elements. I'm just lazy do extra work. It's always been like that I'm easily distracted, easily bored, and just lack motivation. I need to change, i need to survive intermediate because it's tough. i always know that I'm capable to do anything, I know since young that I can be successful in career. Many of my frens told me that, in college or high school. I'm glad that people told me that.I cannot disappoint myself, I have too much ego to fail..fail myself especially. I don't really care if I fail my family cause they don't seem to care about me anyways. I ahve to learn to stop proving to people. It only hurts me if my efforts are overlooked. So i'm just not gonna prove to anybody but myself. I have high expectations in life. i have to buck up. I have to partially say goodbye to my social life. Sherlyn, we can only go sunbathing once a month only n occassional movies only...;< Oh yeah shop only during Mega Sales..
One more thing, with the emergence of so many lawyers in Malaysia, I'm sure i have the capability of joining the lot. Failing is not an option~