u know who u r

this two weeks was eventful and busy nonetheless. I got my car finally courtesy from The bear. It's a red kancil plate BFE1787. It's second hand auto sold for RM 7500.It's my bf 21st birthday present for me. I'm so happy that finally i can drive to places without the wait. Cause i uslly take the lrt to work or school so I have to wait for my dad or bf to fetch me to the station. kinda tedious. I cant really drive to the station yet cause i'm still lacking in road skills..hopefully soon enough i'll be able too. this two weeks in college was kinda hectic,beisdes classes are increasing some actions by a person has disappointed me n some of my frens. i trusted her. i did not know she would lie to everyone. a different story here n there. we confronted her but seems no different. the relationship is just going downhill. frenship ain't the same anymore. i dunno if she knows how i feel but if she's reading this blog,she'll know now. i dunno how to talk to her anymore.call me coward but i dunno how to confront all this face to face.what she told me contradicts with her actions. i pity her sometimes but at the same time i dun know how to befriends like the way we used to. a fren should be honest. the way she handle an event made me see her true colours. if the particular person is reading this blog, i tried to be your fren,support you but you should be true to yourself. reputation is not everything, did you volunteer the job for your reputation? if yes, that's why the commitment to make the event great its not there. cause i personally feel the event is bout u. not only do i think that but others too have come to me and said that. they complain to me, at first i defended u, but too many things had happen that prove that. speechless when i found out diff accounts of story you told. it may be a small story but it's diff version everytime.i safeguarded your secret that you said not to tell anybody but in the end evrybody knows because you who told them all. i have to lie to them to protect the not so secret anymore. i dunno whther i could trust you anymore. when the decor went to times square to do their job you told them not to go behind your back. why is that? those are the little people left to help you but you marah them like that? your indeciveness in changing the date also arouses supiciousness. everybody has agreed and rajan has announce it' gonna be 22nd. but when chan told you bout the tang yuan festival you quickly wants to chagne to jan5 which coincidently falls on ur birthday.i already told you ,you have to choose your family or the event? you choose both and made it worse,for your mom and the commitee.you can't have both. life's is not a competition for attention. you said you want to step down but then when the meeting form what i see you said if all of u trust me i'll won't quit. why hold on? what are you holding on? your ego?reputation? i'm sorry if you are hurt. i'm hurt too. it's not that we did not talk to you bout it. maybe it's your nature. nnetheless our frenship wun be the same anymore. i also dunno whther i'll trust anyone like i trusted you.i feel stupid in a way now.