a NEW year???

I'm posting this post form The Bear's house approx 12.15 am. I'm not big on countdown. the crowd and the hot humid weather plus the traffic jam..But that's just me!!But the best way to usher in the new year is too organise a party at a rooftop somewhere or a place with a view and party there and watch the fireworks..

I had not made any new year resolutions yet. I'm a bit apprehensive of 2008.It seems to me ther is much in life to go through.Fast forward I'm 21..an adult..furthermore in five months time is the LLB exams. Scared,worried..It's not like in high school where the new year signifies a new beginning where as for me is just a reminder of how fast time flies and how near the exams are.

I'm emo today.I had this dream. It's a bout him again.Only the closest know who is he. I dreamt of fireworks and carousels and the last thing he said is that he'll always be there and do it all over again.I feel guilty in a way when I woke up. Like I'm cheating for dreaming about him...Why do I still dream about him? I know that we could never be together. I hate this feeling. I wish I could turn back time and change the decisions I've made. I should never let go... But I can't and I'm now happily embracing what life brings me..I hate this feeling...I need to let go the past. But my subconcious mind would not let me. Giving me these kinda dreams.Its painful once you wake up....What a way to usher in the New Year.It's been 4 years since that the dreadful day.

Nonetheless Happy New 2008!!May this year bring happy returns to you guys and me..