kawad!!!...

it's kawad time for prefect yet again...my shoulder hurts everytime i kawad...summore this year is pertandingan mr tan wants us to win this..c'mon..the possiblity is low i think..prefect stuff really bringing me down..every morning sure got stuff..kena marah in d morning..wut a 'nice' way to start the day..homework for maths r many..n i dun tuition maths anymore cuz i cant understand wut mr ong teaching.. i'm really scared of stpm..n my shoulder hurts really bad..it;s been hurting since std 6..it subside but now come back..tension..stress...my head is really heavy n i feel like just sleeping for a long long time..i'm not saying i wanna die la..but i dunno wut to do..i;m like floating in d middle of nowhere.. my time all full liao..n i think i lost the urge to go to church..when i think of tht particaulr person in church i bengang...like jesus says have to forgive 77 times forgive 2 times also hard to do..help pass thru this..jesus..my tower of refuge.. i feel like wanna hug jesus n fee his warm embrace... i receuved new tht my fren is coming back form abroad n got bf redi.. so unexpected..i'm nt saying she nt girlfren material but she is so independent..sure tht guy very cun..i'm happy for her..can;t wait to c.. ok c u guys