chinese new year

gong xi gong xi...so fast cny liao..it feels like yesterday i baru masuk sekolah balik..phew how time flies by so fast..deep inside my heart is cared to face the future..it all seems so unclear to me..i just wish the best to me.. this new year i din balik kedah wif my bf allan..cuz the holiday is too short n not enuff room to accomodate me..anyway today i ate a LOT!!..my mom cook a lot today n cannot finish..tomoro cook summore..sure gemuk after holidays...tomoro go to my grandma house n meet my saudara..so boring..sumtimes they all seem so fake..i thought is this how is gonna be when we grow up n have our own families..y must all bro n sis have a really huge gap and act diff in front of ourselves..it feels very naive in sumway..or maybe they see money more then family love..after all they meet onece a yar so i guess it is their time show off i guess...and it seems like there's an unspoken competition on who wears the best cny clothes..i used to judge how ,y cousins wore but now lantak la..all r fake..what r they trying to prove?? me as d youngest could onli sit n observe..n actually i'm blessed to be the youngest..i get to lean a lot from other siblings n get to c the real world at a younger age..nmy bf taught me a lot on ppl's actions juz by observing..come to think bout it ery naive on how my thinking was.. today my sis gave me an iq ques n i caught the trick in it whereas my dad cudn't at first..n i terfikir mr.linggam's teaching tht in an instant ou minds will change n i feel it now..i get to explian my bio knowledge to my mum regarding her asthritis n all because of linggam's teaching..sumtimes i feel life is like a piece of paper where we draw wut we want but sumtimes we make a mistake andwhen we use an eraser to rub it off it leaves mark...and our drawing wun be perfect..in a drawing we can't always draw precisely evry inch n centimetres with our bare hand..and when we draw sumtimes we stumble to an artist's block...life oh life..it is a largest mystery not single scinetist can unravel...