stick together, team

It's 2 something in the morning, I have to wake up around 7.30 cuz criminal tutorial is at 9.30 am. Damn early but I will make it to the class because is Miss Puvanes and she gives great tutorials. She's seldom late and the no nonsense kinda lecturer. I went to Genting the last weekend, the pics coming real soon ya. It's at The Bear's laptop and I din see him today..He's so busy working, I kesian him, overworked and underpaid. Anyhow, I skipped yet another public tutorial today. I just can't stand it la..going all the way to college for the two hour tutorial..it's a different story for criminal..I don't want to elaborate more on the lecturers, I'm threading on sensitive grounds as it is.

I kinda broke the declaration that I made to myself bout gaming. Back in high school, I'm the only girl within my class who's into gaming, I mean those Starcraft, Warcraft,Diablo etc..i do play the non violent games such as Sims and whatnot but i'm into those hack and slash games a lot. At that time CS was as its prime. Every kid plays CS in CCs. The group guys always invites me to CS and Dota. But I refuse standing on my ground to not pay for CC games and to save myself for the quicksand of addiction. i'm proud of myself being a CS virgin all along. I held on to it till now. The Bear installed CS in my pc.( he wants to try it on my monitor to see how great it is not knowing the consequence he brought forth) At first he let me try, I tried and said I don't want to play cuz I keep getting killed. Then the temptation to overcome the challenge is growing and now I think I can't keep my hands off it. There are so many maps yet to be explored..now i'm just using th cs_militia map till I can play a perfect game, which my stsndards is to kill all 6 CTs or reach 50 on my list.

There I admit I'm an addict. Reminds me of those AA meetings you seen on tv..Hi, My name is G0h Ai Chen, I'm a game addict(then the other ppl clap their hands).
Counsellor: So tell me, Miss Goh, when did you realise you need help?
Me: I first notice when I could not get up for classes due to my constant gaming at night. I procastinate saying I will stop but the urge of gaming is always there. I cant stop myself, I feel the need to finish a game asap so I can move on to the next game.My sleeping routine is jeopardize(evidently, since i'm posting this at 2.30 am).
Counsellor: You did a good job by coming to this meeting and admitting your problem. We are all here to support you..yada yada